Hope Writes Its Own Story
For nothing will be impossible with God Luke 1:37
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December 3rd
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It's Simon's birthday. Tomorrow he will be 5. FIVE! Five. Sigh....
If you haven't, take a few minutes and go to Simon's Beginnings. Read about his early days. Life would never be the same again. Little did I know it wouldn't be the same and that its all a BLESSING!
1--I didn't know that I'd be a co-founder of a non-profit organization that is doing amazing things! And I LOVE IT. I love everything I do for it!!
2--I never imagined I get to go so many places because of Simon. New York, South Carolina, Atlanta, Philadelphia, New Jersey-next year. Where next?
3--I didn't think I'd be teaching doctors and specialists about PKS instead of them teaching me. I didn't know I'd enjoy the visits and learning about everything associated with PKS and especially Simon.
4--I never NEVER envisaged the people I would meet. People I truly consider family now. People I love. And some of these people I'VE NEVER EVEN MET IN PERSON! But I call them friends. Good, dear, important friends. Or sisters and brothers. Really.
5--Finally, I didn't know I could love one person this much. Especially one who can't demonstrate his love back to me. (And I think he loves me). A little guy who melts my heart each and every time I see him smile or hear him giggle. A little man who has my heart. A son who is closer to God then I'll ever be. A boy who is PERFECT, just as God intended him to be.
Some of you have heard this before, but after I was released from the hospital, Jim and I were driving over to Bronson (Si was in the NICU there). I was quiet, filled with some apprehension. It was December 6th I think, and we were listening to Amy Grant's Christmas cd. My mind was racing and wondering and imagining. And then this song came on (which is beautiful anyway) and tears just started pouring down my face.
Here are the lyrics:
I have traveled many moonless night
Cold and weary, with a babe inside
And I wonder what I've done
Holy Father, you have come
And chosen me now
To carry your son
I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load I bear
In a world as cold as stone,
Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now
Be with me now
Chorus:
Breath of heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
Light up my darkness
Pour over me your holiness
For you are holy
Breath of heaven
Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one one should have had my place
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me
(Chorus)
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
The words spoke to me...I felt just like that. (Even though I'm no Mary!) Read the words again. Can you see why? I love that song. Always have, but now it seems extra special to me. God is with me all the time. He has a plan and He guides me.
So, Simon my boy, I love you with all my heart. Happy Birthday.
(I just went over to Birth to June and looked back at the old pictures. (You have to start at the bottom) He's changed and grown so much! I'm getting weepy :dry:)
Love, Gretchen
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Gretchen, thank you for sharing Simon's and your story. I love that song. Now I will think of you whenever I hear it. Sometimes I wonder why God trusted me so much with my children. He really knew what He was doing when He gave Simon to you and Jim. The perfect parents for the perfect boy.
Hope you are having a wonderful day full of fun.
Love to you and your special family,
Lexi's Gram and Gramp: Brenda & Bill
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Lord,
Please help me remember that Your love is always greater than my disappointments and Your plans for my life are always better than my dreams.
Amen.
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